I have been really bad about posting on this. Since school started found out son one son was special needs asd and other had issues with hearing.  Both are getting speech therapy to help but looong battle.Waiting to be assessed getting help etc.  I moved to new place and they are doing better at least there is more space to roam. I thought I would finally go back to work once they started school but Gabriel needed speech therapy and extra help so i postponed another year. This year we found out Aiden needed more help so more appointment. It stressful but I find joy in little moments. They love sledding which is great since we live in Canada it great to get on snow and forge our worries and just see them smile.